leiferik1

dedicated

i can't [make] you happy i need a [change] of scene~
and [when] we make love i think of other things
of [how] you left me
of [how] i'm ashamed
while [you] just sit back and [play your games]
i was so [dedicated to you]
you were so [dedicated to me]
what was so wrong? [why'd you decide to leave?]

nothing [nothing] nothing
nothing [nothing] nothing
nothing [compares to you] nothing
nothing [compares to you] nothing

i can't [make] you love me i need to forget about you
and all the stupid things you used to make me do
and [now] i think about
of [how] you left me
and it makes me feel like i've [nothing left to bleed]
i was so [dedicated to you]
you were so [dedicated to me]
what was so wrong [why'd you decide to leave]

nothing [nothing] nothing
nothing [nothing] nothing
noting [compares to you] nothing
nothing [compares to you] nothing


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the useless drag of empty days
tear me away from shallow graves
and even though i think of you
nothing really compares
you need to listen




its another day and your gone gone gone
its another day and its gone all wrong again




i can't think tonight

i thought about you today
i thought about what we did and what we said


i am shadows
i am afraid
i am nothing


come kill me
take me from this pain
take me from this world



sometimes you make me feel like everything will be okay


i can't see though to you on the otherside
i can't see anything
i can't see anything
i can't see thought to you on the otherside
i can't see anything
i can't see anything
i am blind
i am nothing
crumbling away
away to the nothing
my eyes decieved me
you were never real
i can't see anything
i can't see anything


mushroom man
i can see your hat
and in the corner over there is a cat
maybe he's dead, maybe he's alive
i'll tell you what...he's ben talking jive
oi that means ur stupid
what...where'd that come from?

i love my monkey


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do you ever


do you ever think of me
do you ever wish we could be so much more than this
holding hands alone together dreaming of what could have been
can you help me figure out what went wrong with my life
when all i ever wanted was for you to be my wife
oh how we say, the things we'd change, if given the chance
life is never what it seems
falling falling falling
i'm losing control
falling falling falling
theres nothing left for me to hold
maybe someday we will look back and laugh at these shattered dreams
dying to concieve what the other is thinking at that moment, looking in though different skys

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make me happy, take my anger and produce beauty
i have yet to figure out what makes me love you so
over and over and over again
lets not repeat our mistakes, the things that have led to so many differences between us
lets instead focus in on wat makes us happy


shades of gray spread across an endless sky painting pictures before me and my wishes to die
there was a time when everything was as it should be, there was a time, a time when you were with me
and now theres nothing
an empty hole where you used to be
so say something
and dont just stare so blankly at me
to see your face
to touch your skin
to hear your voice
its all held within


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alique


i'm alone again



**** i can't think
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my eyes are burning as
broken promises slide down my cheeks
leaving me broken and confused
thoughts wandering around me in a vicious circle
now dazed and dizzy
my being is not complete
not without you here
looking in your eyes frightens me
yet i find myself engulfed in you
falling deeper by the second
so deep i'm unable to claw my way out
i feel things unfamiliar to me
the way your touch still remains although your no longer touching me
my life is empty, bottomless
a void where you once were






i'm so glad you could make it
i'm so glad we decided to fake it
and through it all, there you were
alone.
afraid.
naked before me.


i gave you my heart my all and you just laughed in my face

can you still hear them cry
can you still remember all the times
reminders of yesterday litter my mind
i'm beaten down and broken
too distrought to go on
so kill me now, for tommrow may be too late. the things we've seen, the things we've done
were all fake. nothing is real. nothing is real. NOTHING IS REAL. i can't feel you
i can't smell you anymore.


my faith is crumbling benieth the weight of your lies and as
i look up and see for the first time the pain begins to sting my eyes
how could it be that everything to remind me has been taken away
empty memories
forgotten dreams
to what do i owe the honor?
the splendor of your grace has long since left
parting on bad terms with your dignity, who i did love so much

i'm so obsesssed with my obsessions that i've been consumed by hate.
be that as it may, a piece of me still clings to what little sanity i have left.
and ever so slowly the demons that tourment my soul are taking over my free will,
bending all my conscience thoughts, shaping them how they see fit.
oh how i've longed for the day of release.
freedom from the tourtured life i now must endure now seems like a long forgotten dream.
and as i pray on this alter of pain, cradle my filth in your arms and remember the man i once was
for it is he who is gone.
i am just a memory

leiferik1

and you thought you had issues